But seriously, the bill has come due on all this holiday stress, leaving me exhausted and in the lowest possible mood for holiday cheer. I’m not gonna lie. I have a tendency to overdo things. Which I very much regret later. (Usually around January 😉 )
I’ve been running around a lot lately, trying to get everything done before school’s out for the winter. Because holiday shopping when the kiddos are out and Christmas is nigh is… well, have you ever seen that scene in the Lion King? You know, the stampede? ‘Nuff said.
However, I’ve gone a little crazy with decorating, and crafting, and shopping, and even squeezing in a little editing and revision. Which doesn’t leave a whole lot of time left for more relaxing hobbies…like saving the world from Dark Anchors coming from Coldharbor.
Then of course there is the spending. I know some people really enjoy spending money. I like shopping. I like acquiring. But spending money… I start to get anxious. The more I spend, the more anxious I get. Even when I have it available to spend. I start to panic, certain I will go over-budget. Then I have to get really creative!
Speaking of creative, my homemade gifts cost me more than some simple gift cards would have. I can never do things half way.
Though I’m tired, and worn out, and hitting that seasonal low that seems to strike every year at this time, I’m feeling a bit of optimism too, because the light is at the end of the tunnel (I’m almost positive it isn’t a train 😉 ) Presents are wrapped, craft projects are done, the house is nearly completely decorated, and I can finally sit back and focus on how incredibly blessed I am.
Eighteen years ago, my husband and I bought our first tree together. A small tabletop tree that cost about ten dollars—which was almost the moon for us back then. We decorated it with ornaments from the dollar store, which was all we could afford. It was simple and precious to us because we were young and scared but also excited for what the future might hold. Today, I look into the eyes of my daughter and recognize that none of my dreams back then could even approach the reality of what we have now.
For everyone who is stressing this holiday season, trying to compete with your family members on nicest tree or ugliest sweater, or comparing your life to the people you follow on Facebook and Instagram, don’t forget to take a step back and look at how far you’ve come.
I wish you all a Happy Holiday!